lost

i am lost. like i do not know wat i wan. i cant explain the things i pursue. mayb its the thrill or out of sheer desperation. desperation for wat? freedom? companion? experiences? i dunno. i have never been so unsure about my life... so lost. i need directions. or at least a map. wat i shud do, or wat i shud want. this confusion makes me lose track of my life and my goals in life. i have lose interest in studying, school, lectures and all. i think i have lost in a maze tt i somehow created myself. i jez go with the flow. whose flow, wat flow? i dont know.

everyday it seems like i am happy. like i know who i am and what i want. like the advices i give ppl seems valid and reliable. but its all a facade. i am a facade.

mayb i'm jez a lost nobody...


solitude