strained

physically and emotionally strained.
tts how i'm feeling now after the week of hell i've been thru.
am not gonna tell wat happen coz i dun wan to hang my dirty linen out in the public.
thx God for my sis.
thx God for my frens.
if it wasnt for them it wud be harder.
and i cant imagine anything worst tt the hell i've been thru.

despite of all the emotional downs, i had the time of my life wit my sis n my frens.
yea i know it ironic.
but i did have fun even though there r times between the fun tt i realise tt the lump in my throat n the sorrow is still there.
n tts wen i had a few mins of "termenung" time.
but thanks sis for the emotional and financial support for trying to solve and make me forget my problems.
thxs to my frens for giving me such great time n advice.
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putting tt aside, i went to DXO ladies nite on fri wit sis, nisa, mich, annur and suhairi. damn it was alot of fun. despite me being totally not dressed (in pants n sweater) for clubbing, i had the blast. those endless bourbon coke and the tequila shots (thx darlin sis) and the great live band (2 hott philipino vocalists) and all those booty shaking, its as though i dun have any worry in the world. my sis almost spent 200+ on all of us! damn!

sat, i went to my miss lydia lim (now mrs seth tan) wedding at faith community church at marine parade. its was such a touching n beautiful wedding, a few shed tears leaving the others in awe. i shed a tear during the thanking the parents session. made me realise tt i dun wan to be parentless at my own wedding (which will be in 7632834652936335283982473946349 days to come). after the wedding, i went sheeshaing at arab street with the skodeng peeps. my first time there. food there very expensive n not tt good either. we had peach sheesha. my first time. its ok la relaxing but not much tobacco taste. try to chill n relaks wit the peeps but it was hard. had alot of things on my mind. sigh. syukur Alhandullilah all ends well. (i hope).

den mon-tue we had scl leadership camp @nyp. overall it was not tt great. esp the second day wen we had to undergo PT. it was hell. burpies, star jump, sit up, push up (i did the guys style all the way) n more. 3 round of everything. i was tired n in a fowl mood. but i didnt quit. i perservered n finish everything *pats on the back* . but my knee hurts after tt. damn. but the most fun n meaningful part was hanging out wit the skodeng peeps. its mean alot to me to know this great peeps. such true friends. hang out at behind amk park till 2.30am having heart-to-heart conversations. den went back to skool to sleep at stadium till morn. its was great. fiza, wan, hatim, irah, fit and hadi. now i'm at fiza house mayb till 8pm or so. going back early coz got work tml morning.

working at venture era. need to hit marketing exec b4 11 march. i can do it!

p/s: if u need a flexible job contact me.
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Tears don't fall
Embedded they are
And no matter what
Rounds the corner
Somebody cares for you

Deciding whether it's true
Or not, is up to you
No body can tell you what to do
The reason I'm telling you all of this, is

For the first time, I came to realize
All my life I was sad and down
Looking for an answer that didn't exist
Looking for someone to love, when really I was loved all along