raya raya raya!

this blog is like practically dead. but well i shall try to keep it alive. below are photos from Hari Raya 2007. i though it would be special coz my birthday happen to fall on the 1st day of raya but i was wrong. it was just like any other raya. i only got one birthday prezzie this year (pathetic) from ibu and abah which was a $290 Guess watch. my 1st non-babyGcasio watch! weee! the rest were raya+birthday money which honestly is the same amount i got any other year. i mean not that i am complaining ah. just that i expect something more special. oh well i was kinda disappointed too coz not only none of my friends gave me any prezzie (which doesnt really matter) but most of them kinda forgot my birthday totally. i dont blame them ah coz i understand they are busy with hari raya itself. oh well.

but other than tt i had a pretty fun raya with the nyp skodeng this yr though it was a short one for me. i hope its not too late: Selamat Hari Raya to all of my friends and whoever reading this. from the bottom of my heart Maaf Zahir Dan Batin.

school has start like 2.5 weeks ago. i really am working alot harder now then i did last sem coz i did very badly for my modules. mayb i have to even repeat like a sem! now tt the alley has less ppl hanging out, i am only there during my breaks. hope things turn out to be the better for me this sem.

today 31st oct, i told 2 more ppl the identity of the person i have a crush on. that makes 3 nyp-ian and 3 outside frenz. somehow i think its not a normal crush on a "hot" guy but i think i am really falling for this guy. oh well... just wish he notice me more even as a friend.

Something as simple as me hearing your name,
Put words in my head that I cant explain.
Back then, I wasn't really sure,
But now I see you are all I need and more.

I know we're only friends and it hurts so bad,
Because I know I'm a girl you don't wish to have.
My eyes glisten, I have butterflies flying,
Can you look at me, see how much I'm trying.

I sit and stare in your eyes, as you tell me again
Of how much you have fallen for my friend.
You leave me sad, yet I wish you'd stay,
In case I don't see you for the rest of the day.

You call me daily, asking how I am,
Inside I'm dying to say I want you as my man.
I'm not sure, exactly how long I can take,
Before my heart shatters of waiting so late.

I want to say I love you, for you to understand,
That I can no longer see us being just friends.
I'm scared to tell you baby, I don't want you to go,
So deep inside I hide my emotions so they wont show.

Every love song I hear, your name pops in my head,
So easy to feel it, so hard to be said.
Your everything I need in a man to be,
If only one day, you would love me.

shit. i hate this feeling. at the same time i like thinking about him. but i become numb and silent when he's around, which i hope is not so obvious to the ppl around me coz i am usually bubbly and loud.

till next time peeps. love y'all.