negativity

in foul mood all day. been skipping lectures like mad. getting irritated very easily. having this horrible back ache and headache. oh bother.

u noe wen sometimes u feel hurt or disappointed but u r not able to say it coz well it might make u look pathetic coz u r troubled over petty stuffs and all u can do is deny deny deny and not admit to how u truly feel. oh bother.

why the fuck is my network lagging. my wireless has no security coz i fucking do not know how to do it n now i think someone is using my network for free. haiz. my msn keep on disconnecting. downloading video at youtube is SO SLOW! urgh! oh bother.

i wan to cry so badly now but i dunno wat is bothering so much. i need a shoulder to cry on. but not jez any shoulder. i need the shoulder who belongs to a significant someone. oh bother.

reading a fren's blog. haiz. makes me feel worst coz she's having such a good time.

my back is aching like mad! i need a massage.

i am so emotionally tired. so tired. but i have to be strong. at least pretend to be strong. pretend nothing is affecting me. n i hate it. i'm so so tired.

i feel like smoking now but i cant.

what i need now is a bottle of vodka or bourbon to drown my emotions. and i'm broke. fucking broke and i hate it.

Nothing but an empty page
Breathing in an open space
Captured by your moment's grace again
There's so much I left behind
Even more that waits in time
Everything's so undefined
I'm standing on the edge of my fear
And I see it clear

Here's my resolution
I'm letting go
All I need to learn is along this road
And I just want to be the best man I can be
Breathe, it's my resolution

Living life without him there
Finding soul is where I stand
And learning how to love again
And all I want is something real
That I can feel

Here's my resolution
I'm letting go
All I need to learn is along this road
And I just wanna be the best man I can be

'Cause here's my resolution
I'm letting go
All I need to learn is along this road
And I just wanna be the best man I can be
Breathe, it's my resolution

i wish i could tell someone how i really feel...