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i didnt go for my duty at the NYP open house coz i think its a waste of time.
i went to become an extra on the set of KERANA FATEHA from suria. i went wit fiza, nel, nel's sister and nel's fren. it was ok la. just plainly sitting around n pretend to be a customer at the eating place. it was so last min n i was damn shabby can! minimal make up n my dad's black shirt. wth! if only i knew earlier.... i shall not comment on the actresses there. nurul was frenly and so was the director and tt sound man... so funny ah the jokes he cracked. anyway trust me ppl being n actor/actress is not all easy n glamorous as it seems. so many takes and lines which they have to repeat again n again not because there was mistakes but also coz they have to take at many diff angles. den end up everytime they repeat, the same lines have different expressions, the lines were changed abit n all sort la. so funnny....

anyway me n him is dunzo. coz apparently he got someone else pregs n have to be responsible for it. dunno whether its true or just an excuse he came up wit to end our "relationship". but watever it really is, it doesnt matter coz he likes tt girl n not me. thank god i dun have deep feelings for him thus i am not emotionally hurt but my dignity is bruised abit coz of wat we have done. but yea watever.

why cant guy just break up with us and tell us that they just dont like us and admit that they are jerks rather then making up stories and make it look as if they r the victims.

n today not, i am not the only one who feel like killing men, my close girlfren found out tt her recent bf is engaged to another girl for already a year plus. and she and the fiance had a friendly confrontation and they both decided to destroy the guy. wakaka. its sad n she cried not becoz she was cheated but becoz the fiance was together with him for about 5 yrs n she was not the 1st girl he cheated her with... its must be damn painful for the fiance to forgive n forgive and forgive but he nv change... damn.

y cant guys just stay loyal to one girl. i mean sg is so blardy small... sooner or later ur scandal or flings will be known by ur gfs. this is maha foolish u know! aiyoh...

haiz... i just wish there is that one guy out there... he dont have to be perfect... he dont have to me gorgeous and handsome... he dont have to be rich... he just have to love me...