Rehab

YOu know what's unfair?

The fact that us, the normal, middle class people, or lower, have to force ourselves through whatever emotional pains and physical addictions that we may face. We cannot afford to fall. We cannot afford to breakdown. We cannot afford to undergo depression. We cannot afford to be addicted to substances. We cannot afford to get drunk or get high just to conceal the most unbearable pain: emotional and mental pain. WHY? Because we cannot afford to pay for medical bills, rehab, psychological therapy. Us, the more financially deprived, we have more important things to pay. We deal with money, family, social problems.

Those rich ass people: they have one less problem to face. and yet they choose to spend it on booze and drugs just to prove that they can actually pay for rehab and best medical treatment in the world.

This is fucking unfair. Coz I want to let go once in a while. I want to breakdown and let doctors, nurses and shrinks to take care of me. But I cant. coz I have bills to pay, school to excel in, and the whole future to think of. and this may sound shallow and materialistic but I do think its realistic: Money makes the world goes around. Money makes your heart beats. Money is superior among love, family and watevernots.

haiz. I am in pain.