Just one day off... no more.. i promise

Today was one of those days I didn't feel like going to school. I had one of those lady cramps which came once in a few months for me. Actually so many days I felt like ditching school and laze at home or go out with the sister instead. But many a times, I resist that temptation knowing that I would not want to repeat my previous semester mistakes. However I am not proud to say this... but I kinda MIA-ed from school today because I rather spend time with a Korean babe (yes dear you are still a babe... ) whom i haven't seen since my pathetic attempt of a birthday "party" last year, October. Somehow I knew that I need to talk to her. I knew that us catching up will make me feel better. And I was right. I miss being able to have a conversation about anything under the sun with her. We had lunch at Lucky Plaza because I was craving for the EMPAL PENYET (fried beef with that Indon very spicy chilli paste). We tried walking around after the filling meal, but both of us decided we were too old (aha!) to be walking around aimlessly, so we decided to just chill at the McCafe@Lido. She was so sweet to accompany me until ira and annur came later. She even quarreled with the needy bf just to accompany me. Annur came to meet me because she wanted to collect Irah's invitation card. Irah came later, much much later, to discuss with me the activities of her birthday party end of this month. By the way, she made me became her emcee for her party. This was FUCKING ridiculous because I never emceed before and I knew I will be a horrible emcee. shit! I just have this strong gut feeling that I will embarrass myself! I must find a way to excuse myself.

BTW speaking of the party, my birthday present for Irah might be ruin because a certain someone became emotionally wrecked up because he had a, apparently, huge argument with the sister. And this causes him to ignore me totally and refuse to help me get the "goods" i ordered!!! shucks rite!!! Imagine I turn up without that thing I promised.... so malu kan! All he have to do is to go to his old working place to get the "goods". I mean they are not only mine, but got his and my sister's share. I am so disappointed. Hopefully the sister can find away to get the things.

Anyway, I have nothing to wear to Irah's poolside party. No black (most of my wardrobe are black), white and orange. Any STRIKING colours. Haiz.

btw all the girls I met just now, were in one way or another, got cheated by guys before. and I told Korean babe that I think having to give in to the bf's every single need is so sad. and she say that she thinks i might be the "give in" type of girlfriend. Well this literally made me shiver. The idea that i might eat back my words just seem very disgusting idea to me.

*sigh*

I don't think I miss socializing very much despite all this while I thought I was miserable. In fact I think the whole "anti-social" or "loner" concept seems very appealing to me now. Somehow it helps me achieve what I want.

I am actually more worried than excited about attending irah's party.

I think I should get to sleep. I am feverish from the 17 sticks of carcinogen sticks I had today! too much. just too much for a day... when I am in school I smoke less than 5 sticks per day. when I'm out with my friends, I usually lost track on how much sticks I had. talk.smoke.talk.smoke.drink.smoke.eat.smoke.talk.walk.smoke.laugh.smoke.
plus the hole in the pocket thing is making my head hurt too. maybe i should take a day off from mutating my cells tomorrow.