blonde-ish

bimbo-ish?

lol. no.

anyway despite the previous previous post, sista and I manage to go to far east plaza to get our hair extensions done. i got those blonde-ish strands coz i always wan to highlight my hair by rather not bleach it. sister got a shade lighter than her hair colour now though its not very obvious. hmmm i think mine looks kinda nice. though the problem is my hair is very wavy and the blardy extensions are very straight so its kinda weird. hmmmmmm. maybe i should consider bleaching my hair? should i?

oh btw grandma got admitted to the hospital again today. its the same reasons as before. apparently nothing serious: water retention which makes her ankle look huge and elevated blood pressure. doctors ran some test and apparently nothing is wrong with her. WTF WTF WTF!!! there must be something wrong with her right....... haiz. anyway she'll be staying with cik senah for awhile.

oh ya abt an hour ago i had the most vulnerable and open conversation with my dear korean bestie. i was glad that we had that talk. i cried so hard wen i found out..... the emotional and mental strength of women still manage to amaze me and the things that men do to satisfy their "natural desire" just makes me hate them even more. why cant men be faithful...? why isnt one enough? why will there always be the desire to try other "flavours"? isnt love enough? haiz....

i am afraid coz i see my love ones around me get hurt by men. not only bfs, but husbands, sons, brothers and dads too. am i able to find the one who will love me unconditionally. or is it possible to be a perfect individual entity? only time will tell.....