boulevard of broken dreams

1st n foremost, congrats for passing ur TP afie!!!!
n lyla, u can do better next tyme.
la dun worry. kau confirm ader kereta waiting for u wen u pass....

talk to syafiq (fatheha's ex) yesterday on the fone.
its damn weird coz we never had a proper conversation before wen he was still with bestie but now we talked on the fone.
den he wanted to talk to the bestie and i had them to conference.
luckily bestie tak marah.
so when they were talkin, i put my hp aside and didnt hear their conversation coz i feel like i am not suppose to hear them.
den suddenly bestie call me, cryin coz fiq start reminising about the past.
damn.
i'm sorry girlfriend. i promise to never do it again.
but one thing i know is that you're very lucky to have someone loving you that much.
its funny when the person you know who loves you and is incapable of hurting you, is not the one you want to be with.
i guess "love is everything", not that true after all.

i feel kinda frustrated coz i am tired of school.
so much to catch up on.
exams is in 2-3 weeks time.
and being a scientist isnt my dream afterall.
so it sux doin things u hate doing u know.
but i guess its too late.
you just have to persevere.

ok maya feeling emo shit.



Would you like to hear a secret,
Something I'll bet you never knew,
A secret deep inside me,
I've been hiding it from you.

Do you see this smile,
So huge upon my face,
My eyes are big and sparkling,
Everything seems in its place.

I'll bet you didn't know,
As I close my bedroom door,
There's something I've been hiding,
I let out as I fall to the floor.

You can't hear my silent sobs,
Or see the cuts I make,
You don't know the things I do,
When I don't have to be fake.

The secret I've been hiding,
The one that I hide best,
I never wanted you to worry,
Mother, I'm horribly depressed.